Sep 12, 2012

death to the Diary.

Yes, it's true. The Diary is dying. I am retiring it.

I've gone on quite a journey with the Freakish Diary, and I have seem my life change before my eyes.

I will still blog, though. I'm starting a new blog called Fighting with Lindsay, about my characters.

please come visit me there.

Thanks.

Love,
Haley.

Sep 10, 2012

I have a stomach ache and I'm pretty sure it's from the on campus food.

my life thus far

So I've been really bad about writing this summer. Here's a rundown:

1. Spheal and I are fine... but miss each other terribly

2. I'm teaching three nights a week at two studios, for a total of 7 classes, plus my own classes which I take and give to myself. yay!

3. I've also gotten my jump-rope stamina up to a few minutes rather than twenty seconds. Now I'm working on prolonging the higher heart rate.

4. Mom and Fish came to visit for a weekend... that was fun, but very tiring.

5. Dad might come and visit us some time this semester. I do miss him, and I am looking forward to it, but I also sort of dread it. It's not that I don't love him, it's just that some of his actions towards me have made me irritated with him lately.

6. I still like lists just as I did before

7. I still hate the joke that is campus dining, this time more than before

8. I want so badly to dance and write and craft all day, but I have stupid school to worry about.

9. I've lost enough weight to fit into the vintage dress I bought at an antique store this summer, but not enough for it to be comfortable. Got a few more pounds to lose. Of course I don't know how much I weigh, because I got rid of my scale due to my constant fixation on my weight. (aka I left it at home)

10. I can't express to anyone how badly I want to see my Spheal right now. Last night I simply burst into tears because I miss him so much. I'd do just about anything to sit with him, see his smile, hold his hand. Forget the rest. I just need to be there with him, but he's six flipping hours away.

c'est la vie, i guess.

here's to shitty cereal and chicken patties with a side of wheat germ,

~Em

this warrants a "wtf?"

we started off dancing.

One of my students was there. she was doing so well. we were all dancing, and then suddenly, the ground was shaking, and we heard a terrible sound, like giant footsteps. For some reason I was holding a baby.

then the building crashed in around us. a giant ugly monster wanted the baby's eye lashes. then the baby and I changed from people to planets. the huge dino-monster tried to blow us up.

suddenly it was as if I was playing a videogame and was outside of it all. my mom was trying to teach me how planets can explode or be absorbed. then we were talking about life expectancy, and she wanted me to live for a long time so she gave me some pills. the first set made my heart bigger, the second set gave me more blood, the third set made me grow, etc. finally i felt sick and said something along the lines of "i'm tired of this experiment, I understand lifespan, can we call it quits?" and she was like "oh fine." so I went to the bathroom and forced myself to throw up, but I couldn't. the last thing I remember thinking before waking up was "I really shouldn't have eaten Jupiter."

Sep 9, 2012

Went to an audition for nutcracker. It feels so hopeless. I will never be who I want to be... Not until heaven. Then I can dance.

Aug 9, 2012

Got the teaching job I wanted, but left my computer cord there. spheal and I spent a great week together. School starts in a week. Can't wait! Senior year!

Aug 6, 2012

Got a gorgeous new phone. It brings me great joy. Its $100 full price but the guy gave it to me for $30 because they were out of the one I wanted :p

Jul 31, 2012

blahhh

my period came early.

I have a yeast infection.

my lymph nodes in my neck and chest are swelling up and I don't know why, but it hurts to swallow and I can't turn my neck.

and today I strained my back.

I owe my university money but I can't figure out how, when, or where to pay it and if I don't do it by tomorrow they'll drop all my classes.

and I miss my boyfriend.

sigh.

the good news is I just got paid, and it was a good hefty amount! the bad news is it'll probably all be gone by the time I have to go back up to school…

Jul 27, 2012

New favorite treat: sundried tomato bagel with cream cheese from DD.

Jul 24, 2012

Refilling a RX shouldn't be this complicated.

Jul 23, 2012

Just read for two hours from three different books because every time i started reading, it was sad. Tonight is just a bad night for light-hearted reading!

Jul 21, 2012

updates

I suck at blogging lately because I don't have internet where I'm living.
my plans changed and my ballet camp got canceled so I spent a week with spheal instead, during which we made a few major changes to our relationship.
I'm working for my dad again… and I swear this is the last year I will do so. it's been one week and I already want to kill someone. and I'm not even living at the house!
I'm crocheting a sweater. I finished the sleeves yesterday. today I'm going to put it together and tomorrow I'm going to wear it to church…
Sunday, Spheal is coming to visit for the day. I can't wait!!!!
I have a yeast infection and I WANT TO KILL SOMETHING. GAH. also I can't use the cream because it hurts my skin. stupid sensitive skin.
I'm going into carb withdrawl because mom is on a diet that's mostly protein, while I as a dancer need to eat mostly carbs. it's difficult. my head hurts. I'm feeling sluggish.
I might have another dancing job opportunity. updates soon.
my class schedule is finally getting cleaned up because my professor is finally emailing me back.
my intenship is almost finished. just some paperwork I have to do.

now I'm off to work to clean and paint and stuff… and hopefully my headache will go away soon :(

Jul 16, 2012

Back with the fam. Worked out @ the gym w/ my mom today... She has more endurance than i do right now

Jul 14, 2012

Ahhhh summer break. Ive spent the past week (since tuesday morning at 3am) with spheal. Its been awesome. :)

Jul 7, 2012

-_-

ugh.

so yesterday my phone decided to go off at 5am. I coulnd't go back to sleep, so I just got up and watched Season 3 of Two Best Friends Play.

about 3:30 exhaustion and cramps hit me like a rock and I took a 3-hour nap. when I woke up, I'd started my period. (which I'd expected due to the cramps and the fact that I was on the white pills on my BC but still, it kind of pissed me off).

after dinner I was in pain but didn't have any meds so I lay on my back on my pilates mat in a yoga position. that helped A LOT.

then I skyped Spheal.

then I went to bed and slept for 10 hours.

now I need more coffee -_-

grrrrr.

Jul 3, 2012

a few things

so.

Friday I went to Spheal's house and surprised him for the weekend. It was so awesome.

My internship has flown by! I'm on my last week.
I'm writing again. It's wonderful.
I dyed some yarn. with Kool-Aid. It was fun!!!
I learned how to crochet socks! Working on a pair right now for the etsy shop.
we're having a thunderstorm
my car's AC still doesn't work, so I got sunburnt today while driving home and keeping the windows open trying to stay cool.
I really really REALLY want to dye more yarn. IT'S SO MUCH FUN.
I need some chocolate.
my lotion came in the mail… hopefully my skin won't burn up when I put it on.

Jun 28, 2012

I am so excited

for tomorrow

gosh.

I'll tell you why tomorrow :D

jump

so here's the thing… there are two kinds of people: the people who sit around and pray about things, and the people who jump in.

I'm not saying it's wrong to pray about something, like a decision or an idea or whatever, but I've learned that God answers those prayers by either opening or closing doors. He doesn't just make it happen for you.

just thoughts.

Almost friday...

Jun 26, 2012

Coffeeeeeeeee

I want to start a revolution

a revolution that proves that dancers don't have to be anorexic: they can just be healthy.

Problem: I'd have to actually be somebody first.

and I'll never go much more forward in dance than I already am.

stupid world.

Jun 22, 2012

I only wanna be with you…

I don’t know what it is that makes me love you so
I only know I never want to let you go
’cause you’ve started something
Oh, can’t you see?
That ever since we met
You’ve had a hold on me
It happens to be true
I only want to be with you
It doesn’t matter where you go or what you do
I want to spend each moment of the day with you
Oh, look what has happened with just one kiss
I never knew that I could be in love like this
It’s crazy but it’s true
I only want to be with you
You stopped and smiled at me
And asked if I’d care to dance
I fell into your open arms
And I didn’t stand a chance
Now listen honey
I just want to be beside you everywhere
As long as we’re together, honey, I don’t care
’cause you’ve started something
Oh, can’t you see?
That ever since we met
You’ve had a hold on me
No matter what you do
I only want to be with you
Oh, oh, you stopped and you smiled at me
And asked if I’d care to dance
I fell into your open arms
And I didn’t stand a chance
Now hear me tell you
I just want to be beside you everywhere
As long as we’re together, honey, I don’t care
’cause you’ve started something
Oh, can’t you see?
That ever since we met
You’ve had a hold on me
No matter what you do
I only want to be with you
I said no matter, no matter what you do
I only want to be with you

Jun 20, 2012

There are people in the house.... Must... Escape...

Jun 19, 2012

Procrastnating going back where there is a wasp upstairs by my door... Also there will be people there and i suck at dealing with people. I need some sweet tea.

Jun 16, 2012

Old people are annoying... If youre going to drive a fancy red sportscar at least drive the speed limit.

Jun 15, 2012

Yay they finally gave me some stuff to do!

Jun 14, 2012

Found a coffee shop. Live is good.

Jun 13, 2012

Accidently broke the internet... Oops.

stupid!!

I'm 119 pounds. I'm a size 2. why do I feel fat?

-_- stupid emotions.

Jun 10, 2012

My rental car doesnt let me plug in my gps... Great.

Jun 8, 2012

End of week 1!

So I've just finished the first week of my internship. I haven't had a lot of blog time. So here's a quick run-down:

Day 0: Sunday—move-in day. I got here Sunday, met my employer, moved into my room, and met a few people. My room is the top floor of the commons cabin (where everyone eats and makes phone calls and has internet access). while I was moving in a wasp came into my room. freaked me out. I went to bed covered in blankets so it couldn't find me because I heard a buzzing at my window all night long.

Day 1: Monday—do-nothing day. also, I woke up and discovered that the buzzing at my window was a mayfly caught between the glass and the screen. I felt dumb.

My employer—We'll call him James—said he wanted me to get acclimated to the area. So I sat around my room and worked on some knitting/crocheting projects, and I explored the town a little. it's really cute. I found the Walmart and I got some food. I made some lentels and ate some leftover rice I found in the fridge.

Day 2: Tuesday—started work. met with James, reconciled some bank statements, and edited the newsletter.

Day 3: Wednesday—I wrote a speech that will introduce people to the facility I'm staying at. James liked it.

Day 4: Thursday—James was out of town, so I didn't do anything today except hang around.

Day 5: Friday (today)—hung around until 12, when I went into town to drop off a basket of stuff for the people to whom we're giving the speech on saturday. then I worked on emailing people for James.

then I set the table (because I felt like it) and went to Ingles to get some food for this weekend (because I want to eat healthy).

Now I'm sitting outside smelling really yummy food while (Cook is cooking).

Also: My car is totaled. sad days.

Jun 4, 2012

Bugs. I hate bugs.

Jun 3, 2012

On the road again…

I'm about to get on the highway and head out of state to get to my internship (in Georgia. that's all I'm telling you). I'm swo excited!!! and a bit nervous. I'm low on money. I have $34 to hold me over until June 8th when my financial aid comes in. The place I'm staying only feeds you once a day four times a week. So I'll be living on potatoes and rice and frozen peas.

But I'll be okay. Because God takes care of me every single time.

Please pray that I trust God! That's the only thing I need to focus on right now is trusting Him.

I'll have to tell you all my rental car story later… it was a bit of a disaster :P

~em

Breakfast downtown is always a treat. Im getting pancakes ^^

Jun 2, 2012

Coffee...

May 27, 2012

Why do i have to get hungry every day??

May 26, 2012

There is no food in this house.

Take My Paws project

So there's this hymn I grew up singing called "Take my life" and one of the verses says "Take my hands and let them move at the impulse of Thy love."

And it's no secret that I love kitties.

It's also obvious that you knit and crochet with your hands.

Which is why the ministry I'm starting is called Take My Paws. I've been knitting like a mad-kitty (<--- haha, see what I did there?) and making stuff to donate instead of sell.

What I'm going to do is make hats, scarves, cowls, baby blankets, mittens, and anything else I can make, and donate them. That's it. just give them away to people who need them.

I'll also be collecting them from other people if you want to contribute. I'm working with another girl from my on-campus ministry who is doing the same thing.

So if you want to make stuff to donate or send yarn (which is obviously appreciated since we wouldn't have to buy yarn to make stuff for people) email me at sadbutsweetemokid@yahoo.com and I'll send you all the info you need.

And if you can't help physically, please pray that God will give me the opportunity to serve Him with my talents and open doors to make things, give things away, and teach other people to do the same.

Thanks!

oh by the way

I got in a car accident.

it was very small. I thought I'd blogged about it but I checked and I guess not.

this orf plowed right into me (he had a stop sign and went before he saw me) so now the front drivers headlight of my car is distroyed.

I'm getting a rental to go to my internship while the car gets fixed. but thus far I haven't been able to get through to the rental place.

sigh.

anyway. here are pictures.

again, we were both fine. his insurance is taking care of it.

just though I'd let you know since I briefly mentioned it in my last post.

Habits, novels, and coffee shops

The thing about habits is they take a long time to make and once you’re in them you like them, but they’re really easy to get out of.

Good habits, I mean. Bad ones are the opposite.

This time last year I was sitting exactly where I am sitting right now: I was sitting in a coffee shop. I was also doing exactly what I’m doing right now: I was writing. The difference is last year I got somewhere, this year I feel like I’m a dog chasing its tail.

Last summer I wrote a 60K word novel in three weeks, read tons of books, and taught art camps. this year I am getting up at 11 (because that’s when my alarm goes off to remind me to take my medicine) and I’ve written about four sentences, and read a half a novel. I’ve crochet-ed (is that a word?) a lot of things for donation (I still haven’t come up with a name for my ministry) and planned my art camp, but haven’t gotten around to making the samples yet.

I’m trying not to stress though, because I have an internship in a few weeks, and I need to get my wrecked-car back in shape. My novel is sort of on the back burner.

But not for long. Because I’m making a change.

From now on my schedule will be:

Wake up at 6
Pilates, PT, jump rope, and stretch
Go to a coffee shop (the one I’m in now, because their coffee is AMAZING and only a buck fifty in your own cup) and work on my novel!
Go to the library (just around the corner from the CS) and work on schoolwork and crafty stuff
Do whatever else I have to do that evening.
Go to bed early.

(you can mix in talking to Spheal whenever I get cell service.)

at least that's the plan.

Starting Monday. since today is Saturday, and tomorrow is church.

I miss Spheal like mad.

also last semester at school my Zune got stolen. yesterday my paycheck came in, and I found a zune on amazon for really cheap. so I got it.

I CAN'T WAIT. mostly because my CD player in my car ruins cds. now I'll be able to listen to music and audiobooks without worrying about my stupid car.

here. have a cute picture of penguins in sweaters.

May 23, 2012

:(

I had a bad dream last night. It was really scary... I dreamed I was married to somebody, and I had a baby and the guy didn't want the baby so he said he was going to kill it, so I hid it, and then he found out, and he was chasing me to try and find my baby. I grabbed a knife and I was ready to kill him to save the baby. he started running towards me.

that's when I woke up.

I turned on the fan in the bathroom so it wasn't so quiet when I tried to go to sleep.

I miss Spheal.

May 21, 2012

This weekend

This weekend I went to Spheal's apartment and picked him up, and took him to my parent's house. We visited with my grandparents on Saturday, and then left Sunday at about 10:30

My grandma gave me something really special: she gave me the watch her father gave her on her eighteenth birthday. It's really pretty, and it still works. I want to make a new band for it that matches the design, because the band right now is just a black strap and it's broken. But I fix and make jewelry all the time. it'll be a piece of cake.

The funny thing is I've actually been wanting a watch for a while. I'm sort of compulsive about time, and I like to know what time it is in class. but I can't check my phone in class! duh. so yeah.

I'll post a picture when I fix it. :)

Another project I want to do this week is make a seat cushion for my car. I lost circulation in the bottom half of my body about 4 hours into the drive… that was annoying. Also it's impossible for me to sit up straight in my car because of the angle of the seat—unless there's a pillow or something behind my back. so I'm going to take care of that eventually.

I also started another crochet afghan. I think I'm going to make it a full size one, and do little flowers or blue-birds on the plain squares. I'll sell it or donate it or something.

and I'm working on a baby sweater. it's purple and white. swo cute!

and I'm decorating a tutu for one of my students.

I miss spheal. a lot.

Today I worked out finally!

and I feel awesome. This needs to be a regular thing.

Pilates: Hundreds, warm-up rolls, kick-overs, abs series, side series, swan, planks, plank pushups (5 of them…), teaser 1, teaser 2, seal

PT: hamstring curl, Hip ADduction, Hip ABduction, theraband exercises with ankles

Other: some arm pt, tennis ball in my shoulders

Jump Rope: none

May 15, 2012

Pray for me

I've been thinking a lot about God and money and stuff. I'm negative in my account right now (not sure how that happened, I usually keep really good track). I've been trying to sell stuff on my etsy shop like mad, but nothing is coming of it.

So I'm switching gears. I'm going to take a leap of faith and go back to my original plan: make baby clothes and donate them. for free. zero profit.

I know God will take care of me, and I know He'll bless me. I just have to have the faith to do it.

So here we go.

May 14, 2012

must. have. coffee.

so yesterday I got up early for church and went out to breakfast. It was a bit pricey, but it was worth it: coffee and pancakes and eggs. yum! That place is on my favorites list.

Today I got my microwave out of storage (did I mention they don't have a microwave? how do you not have a microwave?) and plugged it in in my room. I started to heat up some water, but the microwave, the heater, and my computer combined blew a fuse. so now I have no electricity in my room until I either a) find the fuse box and fix it or b) confess my sinful microwave.

I refuse to give up my sinful coffee-drinking ways. Not yet, anyway.

I went to school and asked for an advance on my financial aid. Our system is retarded. They credit the financial aid to your account for like three weeks before they deposit it into your account (which takes another week). I have my textbook: I need the money now, and I need it for gas and food (coughcoffeecough). Anyway now I'm waiting for my advance to be approved.

I'm supposed to go home this weekend and visit my grandparents. I'm going to swing by and pick up Spheal. I miss him terribly.

Dad said he'd give me gas money for the trip. but I think he's planning on giving it to me on the way back… which means my paycheck I get on Thursday has to go directly into the tank. unless of course my advance gets approved.

being an adult is complicated.

also being paid only sixty dollars a week is complicated. that's why I have an etsy shop. which, btw, you should go look at.

May 12, 2012

Welcome to the summer adventure 2012!

I left Spheal's house at 8:15-ish yesterday morning, took the drive nice and easy, and then got into town at around 3. I went to my campus to the gym, took a shower, and went to picture day at my ballet studio. (I needed to have a staff picture taken.)

Then the studio owner (and my host for the next three weeks) took me and the photographers out to dinner for mexican, where I had a yummy quesadilla with extremely hot vegetables on it that I had to scrape off because I thought I was going to die there for a while.

Back at her house I met her dog Lassie (guess what kind of dog it was), her baby long-hair dashound named Kara (a vegan knock-off of chocolate, because the puppy is chocolate brown) and her hypo-allergenic cat named Grace. I have my own room in the basement (it's freezing, but they put a heater in here for me), and it's right next to the play room.

that's where her two kids are right now.

One is nine, I think the other is seven or six. they're both adorable, but they're definitely energetic. they're playing the drums and ~~screaming~~ singing right now.

also: they're vegan. which is awesome because they eat ONLY healthy stuff. and that's exactly what I need right now.

although I do really like cheese. Luckily the kids are only vegetarian and haven't taken the leap towards vegan yet.

I think I'm going to like it here.

Also: they drink tea. downside: they don't drink coffee.

I LIVE ON COFFEE. so I'm going to have to go to my storage unit and get my french press.

today we're going to the park for a picnic. the kids want to play Frisbee with me.

May 9, 2012

I leave tomorrow…

Tomorrow evening I go back to Spheal's house, and the morning after that I leave for school again. Not really school though, I'll be in the area and doing an online class, but I won't be living on campus.

I'm looking forward to the solitude and the peace. Lots of time to crochet baby clothes to donate, lots of time to work on my novel, listen to audiobooks, and do my online homework (which is a lot of reading and watching video clips and listening to online lectures).

I'll miss Spheal a lot though…

My grandparents come in tomorrow. I'll see them in passing. I'm going home an extra weekend to see them too… not really looking forward to all that driving.

nice and peaceful. yeah, that sounds nice.

May 6, 2012

out of pure curiosity…

how many people actually read this blog??

phew.

man that was a long week.

I don't even remember everything that happened. my British literature exam was three essay questions. I wrote for like an hour and fifteen minutes straight.

I passed all my classes though (Including French, thank God) and now I'm chillaxing at Spheal's house (aka John. New nickname. Also new picture of him…with a skiddy on top).

Yeah I gave Spheal the name John because I didn't know how important he would become at the time. So John is officially Spheal now.

and apparently I'm a skiddy. so yeah.

also, my summer semester starts tomorrow.

THAT'S RIGHT, I GOT A THREE DAY SUMMER VACATION. I LOVE COLLEGE.

So here's the plan:

On Friday I'm going back to my university for my summer term, and for work. I'm living at my employer's house (we'll see how that works…)

then about a week later I'm going back to my parent's house to visit the grandparents and I'm taking Spheal with me.

then I go back to school/work.

then I go to my internship.

then I go back to work.

then I go back to work at my parent's house!

then I go back for the fall semester of school!

don'tcha wish your schedule was as tight as mine?

say no.

ttyl it's cuddle time. yay.

May 2, 2012

You know you've gone too long without a shower when you start dreaming about dandruff....

Ahhhhhhhhhhh I hate finals... Remind me to describe this week for you guys. Not week. Oh man do I need a vacation.

Apr 26, 2012

The pros and cons to waking up at 6

Pros:

you get more done in the morning
you feel refreshed because you're used to getting up early and going to bed early
it's quiet
it's healthier for your body

Cons:

You physically can't stay awake past midnight, which can be annoying when you know the only way you're going to get everything done is if you pull an all-nighter.

so, this is why, as much as I love getting up early, I'm going to have to train myself to sleep in and stay up late from now on. because this isn't working.

at least until I graduate.

Apr 24, 2012

EWWWWWW SAY WHAAATTT??

I figured out a way to apply my eye-makeup without it burning my eyes out…

I mix the powder with my saliva and paint it on.

I know it's really gross.

but it works.

sorry, don't listen to anything I say until May 5th, because I'm going to be absolutely insane until then.

Apr 23, 2012

This week (and next week) at FD

This week: the last week of school.

Next week: finals.

Suffice it to say, I'm going to be scarce.

That is all.

Apr 18, 2012

Skipping makeup today... We're allowed to skip one. I'm skipping emergency room because I'm allergic to spirit gum and nose putty... ess

Article Response: Jesus, the church, and homosexuality

One of my facebook friends posted an article to his profile. He usually posts interesting stuff, so I checked it out. I found that the article he'd posted was wrong about a few things.

And see, this is why the Bible talks about those who are willingly ignorant, and those whose eyes are not open so they can't understand. When I read the Bible, I understand it. When they read it, they take the letter of the law and try to explain it—and they generally get it wrong.

{my notes will be italicized in brackets}

10 Things I Wish The Church Knew About Homosexuality

1. If Jesus did not mention a subject, it cannot be essential to his teachings. {Yes, He did, actually. Consider again that first, Jesus is part of the trinity, and God strictly prohibits homosexuality.}

2. You are not being persecuted when prevented from persecuting others. {Not sure what this sentence means, actually… I think there's a typo. But here's the thing about persecution: If a true and honest Christian meets a homosexual, they aren't going to try and convert them or condemn them. They're going to befriend them. That's what Jesus would have done. The fact that many Christians are not only homophobes but also just avoid homosexuals shows how sin still effects Christians. We aren't perfect: we just know the standard. That doesn't mean we always meet it.}

3. Truth isn’t like wine that gets better with age. It’s more like manna you must recognize wherever you are and whoever you are with. {I'm not sure what this has to do with anything… But I think it's saying that truth is relative, or maybe that sometimes it isn't clear. This is true. This doesn't mean homosexuality is right. This isn't even an argument. I'm sorry, I don't mean to be rude, but seriously? If you're going to write an article about why Christians should accept homosexuals, at least make your points points!}

4. You cannot call it “special rights” when someone asks for the same rights you have. {of course not. But we have the right of marriage and of accepted love because we're doing it the way it was supposed to be done.}

5. It is no longer your personal religious view if you’re bothering someone else. {this is just outright incorrect. My views bother people—that's the way Christianity works. We're the salt of the earth. Ever pour salt on an open wound? Notice how it hurts like hell but it disinfects? That, right there, is Christianity and an example of Christ cleaning our nasty hearts. Our culture has gone beyond tolerance, and has re-defined the term to mean "acceptance." We have the freedom of religion, NOT the "freedom not to be offended or bothered."}

6. Marriage is a civil ceremony, which means it’s a civil right. {Wrong again: Marriage is a Holy covenant with God—even if the couple isn't saved. God created the covenant, and He says "A man shall leave his father and become united with his spouse." "One man and one woman." Those are God's rules for HIS covenant. We'd better respect that. I can't stop you from sleeping together or living together. That's fine. But it isn't marriage. Even if the government says it is: In God's book (and He's the one in charge) all you're doing is fornication.}

7. If how someone stimulates the pubic nerve has become the needle to your moral compass, you are the one who is lost. {I'm sorry, what? how does this relate to anything? did you run out of ideas to make it to ten?}

8. To condemn homosexuality, you must use parts of the Bible you don’t yourself obey. Anyone who obeyed every part of Leviticus would rightly be put in prison. {M'kay. First of all, we aren't under the old law anymore. Old testament, old covenant, old and fulfilled requirements. It's still a sin, but we don't have to do anything about it except love people like Jesus loved them. Second: It's not our job to condemn people. That's not what we do. That's God's job. Third: God doesn't just talk about homosexuality in Leviticus. He talks about it everywhere.}

9. If we do not do the right thing in our day, our grandchildren will look at us with same embarrassment we look at racist grandparents. {This is true! This has nothing to do with your argument, but this is true. "The right thing" is a bit vague, don't you think? My "right thing" would be making homosexual marriage illegal in all states. They can get a "civil union" or a "domestic partnership" or whatever, but it's not marriage. Your "right thing" would probably make it legal. Now I'm not talking about relative truth, just differing opinions.}

10. When Jesus forbade judging, that included you. {Also true. Again, nothing to do with your argument, since God judges homosexuals, and Christians simply love and serve them like they do everyone else.}

This article annoys the crap out of me, mostly because they try to sound educated and experienced about the Bible, when really they have no idea what they're talking about. If you're going to bash the Bible, at least do your research.

Then again, like I said before. Non-Christians can read the Bible all they want, but unless God opens their eyes, they won't understand it. So I can't blame the writer.

But I still hold to my opinion that it's annoying.

Apr 17, 2012

Ive eaten very poorly today... very poorly. I don't even want to admit how bad...

a letter to myself

Dear Em,

From now on, please start your homework assignments BEFORE the due-date. It will help you a lot in the long run.

Also: praise God for nice professors who extend your due-dates.

sincerely,

Emily from the future.

Apr 15, 2012

An answer to prayer

Just spent a good two hours talking with Jace.

Yeah, that Jace. Remember him?

First of all: totally over him. He's easy to be friends with now.

Second: he's so different! he doesn't' swear anymore. He's focused on Christ. He told me a story about how God's been communicating with him and showing Himself and making His plan clearer for him.

It makes me so happy. Because when I met him, he was different. And I'd prayed hard for him that he would become a true Christian. and now I'm very sure he is.

It just makes me happy.

Now he's getting his laptop and is coming back down to the commons room to sit with me so we can do homework together (neither of us really want to do much of anything).

Side-note: I met Jace in September of last year. And now I'm getting my answer to prayer. Sometimes it does take some time.

Still.

Thanks Jesus.

Apr 11, 2012

You learn something new every day... Today in makeup for theater class, i learned that i am allergic to spirit gum! MY LIPS ARE ON FIRE AHHHH!!!!!!!1

Apr 10, 2012

You know what sucks?

I'll tell you what sucks.

When you're one of the best dancers in the class, but nobody wants to partner you, so the teacher has to assign someone to dance with you for the final performance, and the whole time your boyfriend would KILL to be your partner.

that sucks.

I hate my ballroom class. The teacher doesnt know what shes doing and shes mean to my friends. I forgot about hw cuz its only once a week. & im tired :(

I forgot to eat today... Stupid.

Apr 9, 2012

spring break and starbucks

Got up at 6 like a good ballerina, but then decided that I didn't want to go to the gym because 1. it's cold outside and 2. my ankle is still a little sore from the sprain, and I need to dance this evening, so I'd better plan to save my strength for that.

so now I'm just sitting here waiting for starbucks to open so I can get some coffee and read my Bible and maybe read another book for a while as well. preferably the one I need to read for school before 1:30 today. yeah. should probably get on that.

spring break was awesome. I didn't write much over break, mostly because John was hanging out with me constantly (like we literally didn't leave each other's sides unless 1. we were sleeping or 2. he had to go to class.

which I really can't complain about because I adore the boy.

anyway.

We got there Friday evening. I met his first cousin and his first cousin's wife ( who didn't seem to like me very much, for no reason in particular other than she was PMSing) and then Saturday the sweetheart brought me coffee when I woke up. I don't really remember what we did every day in particular, but essentially, we watched a lot of movies, sat on the couch and read Rage comics, went out to eat a few times, had a candle-lit dinner, played laser-tag and assassin's creed, and watched youtube videos.

just typical geek stuff.

3 more weeks of school. then I'm done. THANK GOD.

then summer starts.

joy.

last night I had a dream that I had a knife stuck in my chest and I couldn't take it out because it would kill me, and I couldn't get to the emergency room because Sis was in the car, and I couldn't call 911 because I didn't have a phone, and when I finally did have a phone, I couldn't find the 9.

-_-

Apr 5, 2012

Chilling at John's house. SPRING BREAK!!!!!!

Apr 2, 2012

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