Dec 31, 2010

invisible man-stabber!

Omigoodness my sister just stabbed an invisible imaginary guy. She is now glaring at him. His leg is still bleeding. She offered him a bandage. SHOOT ME NOW!!!!

Dec 26, 2010

Christmas :)

We had a great christmas. I got a lot more stuff than i thought i would. I guess mom likes buying stuff for me. The party was great and Family time was nice. :)

Dec 21, 2010

I'm ready to kill someone

I have no words. I want to go home. to school where I BELONG. where at least I have a few friends. where people aren't being bitchy all the time. I always thought I grew up in a home with six Christians. I'm seeing now that that is not the case. and it's getting really painful.

need to go home.

Dec 14, 2010


Dear Jesus

please let it snow again.




Dec 12, 2010

Back to snow

So it's 20 degrees outside, supposed to get to 18 tonight, supposed to be 12 tomorrow night. had snow today, supposed to have snow tomorrow too.

thing is, I used to think that 38 was cold. now 38 is like… "no sweater needed" kind of weather. 45 is "shorts and t-shirt go for a run" weather.

I got a good look at some snowflakes today. they fall like pieces of down from a blanket, and when you look at them, really look at them… they look just like they do in the storybooks. up close, the detail is incredible. and they're so small… and there's so many of them…

and every single one is different!

tell me again… whose idea was it that the world evolved from a cosmic soup?… stupids.

here's what I did today: since church was canceled and I couldn't drive in the slush anyway (because it warmed up to like 38 earlier so it kinda got messy outside…) I stayed in bed until like… 9:30. then I saw it was all white outside and I knew I couldn't sleep anymore. so I got dressed and went for a short walk around my dorm room in the snow and took some pictures (check fb for those of you who know me) and called my mom like… twice. because I was so excited. then I went back inside and made some oatmeal and worked on my new book for a while, then I packed up my stuff and headed off to *$ to study. then I ate lunch in the dining hall and went home (took a walk while I was at it) and knit some christmas presents. that was about it. pretty dull day.

oh yeah. the Freon is leaking out of my refrigerator… good thing that stuff isn't as toxic as some people say it is. dad said maybe it would be good for me… maybe it would fix my brain and I'd be normal… pfsh. Freon as treatment for insanity. I'd love to believe that…

but that would make the voices go away, and they keep me company when my friends decide not to hang out with me. they keep me sane.

the voices keep me sane. omigoodness.

totally random note: I just had the first regular 28-day cycle of my life. dead serious… maybe getting out of my lousy little town was better for me than I thought…

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yay snow!

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^^ snow :)


Dec 9, 2010

Slightly Depressed… well…

ok maybe a little more than slightly.

see, im on my period. so I'm sorta in a bad mood. and see, I want to see this play tonight, but I don't want to go by myself, and I don't really have anyone to go with, because Jace goes to an irish bar on thursday nights with his friends (must be a guy thing) and derek is probably gonna hang out with his new girlfriend—the girl I wrote about a while back. he did end up eventually asking her out—and my nerdy friends are probably studying.

so yeah.



Dec 7, 2010

Guys scare me.

my poor brother. I'm trying to convince him that he needs to not date this girl he likes because he's leaving for school next fall, and he needs to get through college and get a good job and establish himself before putting a girl in the picture. he doesn't believe me. he's all "imma be a musician and they all start off broke so it's ok" and "well I can do long distance" and such. it's scaring me.

been trying to pound some sense into his head for the past month. he doesn't seem to be absorbing any of it.

gah. stupid boys.

just ranting.

just ignore me.


Dec 5, 2010

Christmas Wishlist

I'll probably add to this as I go. I never remember things that I want for Christmas until like… three days before… and also at random times.

  • Earphones or Headphones (my brother has mine… and my good ones broke :\ )
  • Amazon gift card is always nice… for music downloads or yarn or books… :-)
  • Papermate ™ Profile gel pens. They're my favorite for taking notes
  • Homespun yarn. I am so making a blanket for next semester…  <3