Aug 31, 2011


So John called my dad this evening and confessed his undying love for me to him. apparently it went better than he expected. Later when he called me he found out that I'm on my period and told me he wished he could be there to hold me and cuddle with me because he felt so sorry that I had to experience such torture.

which is really sweet and funny at the same time. he blows periods way out of proportion. he's like "The inside layer of your womb is being ripped out. that's gotta hurt." and im like "yeah half the time I forget about it. chill out." and he's like "well I'm in love with you so you're going to have to get over the fact that I feel sorry for you." or something along those lines.

so you see how it's funny. but it's also sweet because I honestly don't know any other guy who will stay on the phone with me while I'm crying because im PMSing and sing to me until I calm down and then tell me jokes until I feel better. nor do I know another guy in history who wasn't afraid of girls while they were on their periods. even my dad, when he finds out, says "oh, uh…" and hunches his back and awkwardly leaves the room. but John is different.

he's so different, I don't know of any other guy like him. except maybe the ones out of my novels. and even then, he's like a combination of all their best attributes.

Victory has started planning our wedding.

alright, enough about the boyfriend. yes he is the boyfriend now, even though it's not "facebook official," because he called me his girlfriend. so there. HAH.

Aug 28, 2011

True Love

by Judith Viorst (I didn't write this)

It is true love because

I put on eyeliner and a concerto and
make pungent observations about

the great issues of the day

Even when there’s no one here but him

And because

I do not resent watching the Green Bay Packers

Even though I am philosophically opposed to football,

And because

When he is late for dinner and I know

he must be either having an affair or

lying dead in the middle of the street,

I always hope he’s dead.

It’s true love because

If he said quit drinking martinis but I kept

drinking them and the next morning

I couldn’t get out of bed,

He wouldn’t hell me he told me,

And because

He’s willing to wear unironed undershorts

Out of respect for the fact that I am philosophically

opposed to ironing,

And because

If his mother was drowning and I was drowning

and he had to choose one of us to save,

He says he’d save me.

It’s true love because

When he went to San Francisco on business

while I had to stay home with the painters

and the exterminator and the baby who

was getting the chicken pox,

He understood why I hated him,

And because

When I said that playing the stock market was

juvenile and irresponsible and then the

stock I wouldn’t let him buy went up

twenty-six points,

I understood why he hated me,

And because

Despite cigarette cough, tooth decay,

acid indigestion, dandruff, and other

features of married life that tend to

dampen the fires of passion,

We still feel something

We can call

True love.

Aug 27, 2011

Irene is sitting on my parents.

there's a hurricane at my hometown. my folks have had no AC or electricity for almost a day now. im a bit worried about them, but I know they'll be alright.

last night sis and I went on a camping trip with the Baptist Campus Ministry. it was cool. I met some new people, showed off my awesome pocket knife to the guys (and they were like "dude, this is SICKKK.") and played some fun games.

but I was hot and dehydrated and I did NOT want to sleep out where bugs may be, so sis and I went home at about 11 and slept in our air conditioned rooms on supportive mattresses.

today I went to the gym and ran 2 miles. it felt awesome! and I have decided that starting monday, im going to get back into my regular routine. my body needs it and my soul needs it too.

(this consists of getting up early to run, probably outside as the weather is still nice, then going to the gym for PT, then coffee and breakfast and bible study with sis.)

I miss John. he called me on friday for like two or three hours (my dad is going to flip because I know it'll show up on the phone bill) because he couldn't talk to me much the past week.

He's seriously considering transferring to my school next fall.

AND THE HORRIBLE THING THAT HAD HAPPENED TO HIM THAT WASN'T HIS FAULT? IT'S ALL OVER. some of you know exactly what I mean, and for those of you who don't? essentially someone got him in trouble for something he didn't do and it was keeping him from getting a job and getting into school. and now it's over and done with. it's such a relief!

going to shower and then explore the downtown area with sis.

<3 :)))


ps as you can tell, im not telling you what I eat for a while. I haven't quite gotten my self discipline back yet ;)

Aug 26, 2011

Screw the gym. I turned on the light and let the nightmare fade until i was tired again. I wish i had a boy to hug when im scared...
I hate nightmares. I hate wasps. I hate nihtmares with wasps in them. Cant sleep in peace now so im off th the gym.

Aug 22, 2011

back to the grindstone.

Worked out this morning. if you can call it that. I ran four laps and stretched. it took 15 minutes. but by the end of the fall semester, I'll be working out two to three hours every morning. I'm just really weak right now.

classes today weren't really classes, they were more like "meet the teacher and read the syllabus" day. so that's what we did. I have one of my favorite teachers for English. he's very funny. he was born in the wrong century, he should have been born in England in the 18th century. because that's where he fits in… and yet he makes Monty Python jokes and accepts cultural event reports about Zombie Walks.  I'm taking a ballet class and helping the teacher in part of another dance class. I'm excited :D

John called me for a few minutes around lunch. he really missed me and I told him I had some time, so we chatted for a little while. I miss him.

later this afternoon I went to starbucks and tried to work on one of my books, but it wasn't working so I gave up and facebooked John for a while, but then facebook wasn't working so I gave up on that. so I went to the cookout behind our dorm and attempted to eat a crappy hamburger and failed miserably (I hate about half a bite) and sat there opening and closing my knife that John gave me (yes, he gave me a knife. dumb, right?). then who should show up but Jace!

and let me tell you. it's so much easier to be just a friend to guys when you've got another guy on your mind.

now I can still appreciate beauty. Although Jace chopped off all his hair and shaved his beard so he looks completely different—still attractive, but different— still handsome, but not quite as sexy as he was with a head of blond curls. I threatened to kill him. so he took away my knife.

anyway, he loves speaking french and I have to study french so we're going to hang out and study french together. I hope. because that would be awesome.

the only thing I'm worried about is this… I need to make some new friends this year because Sarah and Katie and Jace and a lot of other people I know are graduating in the spring, and I won't have any friends left :( so I need to make some new friends.

so for food this week, I'm focusing on boosting my metabolism. I'll eat well too, but more than anything I'm trying to get the metabolism up. so don't kill me for eating pizza.

Breakfast: 3/4 cup oatmeal, little cinnamon, 1 tsp wheat germ, 1/2 cup whole milk. this is nasty. I didn't realize wheat germ tasted nasty by itself. but its good for me so I'm going to eat it anyway. ew. I only ate half of it.

snack: Naked Acai berry drink. almost the whole thing. basically that's two days worth of fruit. I love that stuff.

lunch: Natural crunchy Peanut butter and strawberry preserves on french bread. yum! (and water.)

snack: a few triscuit's

late snack: small 3-meat pizza.  and the rest of my chocolate cake. and okay, a starbucks drink. I sort of lost it about 5:00.

I do not want to get my lazy butt out of bed and run laps. I dont, but im going to. Because im G like that.

Aug 21, 2011

If you could time travel, where would you go?

i'd watch the resurrection.

Ask me anything

Going to try again

First of all, no I'm not starving myself.

but I am going to try to go back on my dance diet.

this involves eating about six or seven small meals a day and consuming almost 3000 calories. so again, not starving myself. losing weight, yes hopefully, but not starving myself. I don't want to hear any "Emily, you're going to kill yourself!" or "Emily I'm going to make you eat food!" or "Emily you look so skinny you're going to die!" or "Emily you're underweight!"

because, by the way, a Body Fat Percentage of 11 would be underweight. I'm aiming for 14 as opposed to…whatever I am now, which I actually don't know.

Anyway. I don't want to hear it. that's the stuff that made it fail last time.

Im thinking I'm going to post what I eat on this blog, for accountability. It'll force me to not sneak in chocolate cake too often (yes there will occasionally be some chocolate cake or Ben and Jerry's. it's a must-have during that time, which John refers to as "ravenholm." I'll explain that later.)

which, by the way, he's the only guy I've ever met who will openly ask "are you on your period? do you need extra hugs? can I get you anything?" he's so sweet and considerate like that. and he doesn't feel awkward when I complain about cramps or grumpiness. that right there makes him super special.

he gave me chocolate when I visited him (not Tuesday, but the other weekend when I took Sis to the MtG shop.) it made me immensely happy.

and I think he's going to give me flowers for my birthday because he was sort of hinting at it. ive never gotten flowers from anyone but my dad. it would be really nice to get flowers…

okay yes I'm totally in love with him.

back to the subject at hand.

My goal is 120 with a BFP of 14. Last time I hit 122 with a BFP of 14.8, and that took a little over a month, but I only recorded about 3 weeks of it.

We'll see if it works. It'll keep me blogging regularly at least!!

School starts tomorrow. so excited, but a little nervous :)

Aug 16, 2011

Need to get up. We're leaving at 7. So excited ^^

Aug 11, 2011


well the visit was nice. I get to see him on tuesday. wednesday we go to school.

lost (and found) my phone today. lost my GPS last week and still can't find it.

also lost my zune. which didn't work anyway but at least I knew where it was.

im so stressed and frustrated and nervous about John. I won't get into the details of why, but it's tricky and a little nerve wracking.



Aug 7, 2011

Headphone Horrors!

Ok so here's what happened:

My MP3 player is a Microsoft Zune. It sucks. It's horrible. I hate it. I mean I like it, but I hate that sometimes it works great and sometimes it doesn't work at all. So it sucks.

It died. I decide it's time to use my phone as an MP3 player since that's what it's supposed to do… so I go out and get a cable to hook my phone up to my computer. $30.

Get home and figure out that my phone won't store any music on it unless I get a Micro SD chip. So I get a Micro SD chip. $15.

Synch my music: I'm so excited! look for the headphone jack and discover I don't have any micro headphones. So I go to radio shack because that's where I got the cable, and I ask if they have headphones. they don't have any.

so I go to the  AT&T store, assuming that since it's an AT&T phone the store that sells the phone will also sell the headphones. they don't have them either.

so I go to staples as a last resort. they don't have them either. but they do have bluetooth headsets and that gives me an idea.

so I go BACK to the AT&T store and ask for BLUETOOTH headphones instead of MICRO headphones because my phone has bluetooth connectivity. they do have bluetooth headphones. but they cost $100. I did however find out that they had an accessory sale going on, so it was only $80. there was also an Itunes gift card for ten bucks, so technically I spent $70 on headphones and $10 on Itunes. (which is a rip off anyway because Itunes is so freaking expensive. Amazon is much better.)

and THEN mom was like "oh. I have a pair of bluetooth headphones you can have!"

I was like "gee. thanks mom."

but moms won't connect to my phone.

the ones I bought did, but they don't fit.

o.0 nvodashogsnvoasf.

Aug 5, 2011

Bwahahaa i just figured out how to use the t9 autocorrect on my phone hehehehe

Aug 4, 2011

im sowwy

I know ive been really bad about blogging lately. here's why:

  1. ive been working for my dad teaching art camps. I know right? im a freaking art teacher. John teases me about the bodies of problem students being stored in my freezer.
  2. there's been a lot to say, but I wanted to just sit down and write it all out in a nice long post, but that takes time, and time is something I don't have a lot of.
  3. im sick as a dog.
  4. my aunt is visiting from CA so we've been playing tour guides and entertainers for the past week. and the week before that was house cleaning. and I mean serious cleaning. my mom dusted books and sorted through her scrapbooking papers.

so here's what's happened.

  1. yes I was PMSing. (and yes you did need to know that random awkward detail). That was Wednesday I believe…maybe tuesday. Not sure. anyway I was such a mess. I went to the store and worked on some art stuff for several hours. I was stressed, crying over the phone with John, yeah it was horrible.
  2. John explained to me how the middle finger came about. yeah I know that's random. it's actually really funny and I'll write about it some time.
  3. Last Friday I took Ears, Sis, and Mat (her boy-friend who isn't her boyfriend) to some card shops. while they bought MTG cards, I hung out with John. (and Victory: THIS was the first date, he said so. so there. hah! ;D) We went out to pizza and went back to his place and I met his dad. then we watched a movie called RED: Retired Extremely Dangerous—and it was awesome. it was my kind of movie: spies, dangerous weapons, fight scenes, huge explosions, and undying love.
  4. Saturday mom and I went up to get my aunt from the air port, and we visited John's family while we were up there. our mothers went shopping, John and I went around town for a drive, and then went back to his place (his dad was there)  and sat on the couch and talked. it was so nice.
  5. this week I got new pointe shoes that fit me so well and look great on my feet!! im so excited. they cost me almost $200 for two pairs, but they're great. they look beautiful, unlike the old ones that just looked boxy.
  6. now im sick. and I may not be able to visit John this weekend when everyone goes up to drop off the aunt and go school shopping (we were going to hang out while they went shopping) but I can't go if im sick.
  7. therefore, im going to be so I can get well.

and that's about it.