oh by the way

I got in a car accident.

it was very small. I thought I'd blogged about it but I checked and I guess not.

this orf plowed right into me (he had a stop sign and went before he saw me) so now the front drivers headlight of my car is distroyed.

I'm getting a rental to go to my internship while the car gets fixed. but thus far I haven't been able to get through to the rental place.

sigh.

anyway. here are pictures.

again, we were both fine. his insurance is taking care of it.

just though I'd let you know since I briefly mentioned it in my last post.

Welcome to the summer adventure 2012!

I left Spheal's house at 8:15-ish yesterday morning, took the drive nice and easy, and then got into town at around 3. I went to my campus to the gym, took a shower, and went to picture day at my ballet studio. (I needed to have a staff picture taken.)

Then the studio owner (and my host for the next three weeks) took me and the photographers out to dinner for mexican, where I had a yummy quesadilla with extremely hot vegetables on it that I had to scrape off because I thought I was going to die there for a while.

Back at her house I met her dog Lassie (guess what kind of dog it was), her baby long-hair dashound named Kara (a vegan knock-off of chocolate, because the puppy is chocolate brown) and her hypo-allergenic cat named Grace. I have my own room in the basement (it's freezing, but they put a heater in here for me), and it's right next to the play room.

that's where her two kids are right now.

One is nine, I think the other is seven or six. they're both adorable, but they're definitely energetic. they're playing the drums and screaming singing right now.

also: they're vegan. which is awesome because they eat ONLY healthy stuff. and that's exactly what I need right now.

although I do really like cheese. Luckily the kids are only vegetarian and haven't taken the leap towards vegan yet.

I think I'm going to like it here.

Also: they drink tea. downside: they don't drink coffee.

I LIVE ON COFFEE. so I'm going to have to go to my storage unit and get my french press.

today we're going to the park for a picnic. the kids want to play Frisbee with me.

I leave tomorrow…

Tomorrow evening I go back to Spheal's house, and the morning after that I leave for school again. Not really school though, I'll be in the area and doing an online class, but I won't be living on campus.

I'm looking forward to the solitude and the peace. Lots of time to crochet baby clothes to donate, lots of time to work on my novel, listen to audiobooks, and do my online homework (which is a lot of reading and watching video clips and listening to online lectures).

I'll miss Spheal a lot though…

My grandparents come in tomorrow. I'll see them in passing. I'm going home an extra weekend to see them too… not really looking forward to all that driving.

nice and peaceful. yeah, that sounds nice.

The pros and cons to waking up at 6

Pros:

• you get more done in the morning
• you feel refreshed because you're used to getting up early and going to bed early
• it's quiet
• it's healthier for your body

Cons:

• You physically can't stay awake past midnight, which can be annoying when you know the only way you're going to get everything done is if you pull an all-nighter.

so, this is why, as much as I love getting up early, I'm going to have to train myself to sleep in and stay up late from now on. because this isn't working.

at least until I graduate.

EWWWWWW SAY WHAAATTT??

I figured out a way to apply my eye-makeup without it burning my eyes out…

I mix the powder with my saliva and paint it on.

I know it's really gross.

but it works.

sorry, don't listen to anything I say until May 5th, because I'm going to be absolutely insane until then.

This week (and next week) at FD

This week: the last week of school.

Next week: finals.

Suffice it to say, I'm going to be scarce.

That is all.

New Friends! Yay!

Jasmine and Marie are two girls in my Dance Anatomy and Ballroom Dance class.

Jasmine looks like Jasmine from the Disney movie (only she's not a slut).

Marie is…well… she's hilarious, a theater major, has a great sense of humor, and is totally obsessed with black or dark men. (we decided this is because she had a black doll as a kid instead of a Ken doll, because it was cheaper).

Neither of them are saved. They like me a lot, and invite me to do stuff with them, which is a weird new experience for me.

I'm working with Marie on our dance project. She'll be fun to work with.

Anyway, I'm hoping I get a chance to witness to them. Pray for them, and for me, that I won't be afraid.

As a side note, My African Lit teacher is letting us do an essay about a movie with african themes, and one of the movies she's letting us pick from is Curious George!

Women and Men in society.

Warning: controversial post about religion and society ahead!

Patriarchy: man-lead society (which is the way it's supposed to be, right?)

well, yes. But in our culture, Patriarchy means anti-women. It used to mean man-lead, now it means woman-bashing.

In our society women have lower rights. not less, but lower. we make less money. we're looked down on in some situations. I hears about a woman who, when she was working as an engineer, she got more respect when she pretended to be clueless and need help than when she acted like she understood the situation as well as the men.

Is this right? is it wrong?

well, it's not fair. but is it okay?

maybe.

First of all, what are our roles as women?

1. to train up and care for our children
2. to respect and build up our husbands
3. to care for our home
4. to do whatever specific thing God wants us to do.

Should women be able to vote?

perhaps. Now I'm not saying women should loose their voting rights. But I feel like since men are supposed to lead the household, shouldn't there be one vote per household? if a woman is single and living and taking care of herself, she should vote. If she's living with her father or husband, maybe she shouldn't. maybe it should be one vote per household.

just throwing my thoughts out there.

what do you think?

I hate putting titles on posts when im tired.

So I'm trying to wake up early more, so I can study, and do my Bible study and work out (because I haven't done any sort of exercise in like three weeks). I got up at 6 yesterday and got all sorts of great things done, but at 8:30 I went to bed because I was so tired, I couldn't even crochet.

This morning I got up at 6 again, and sat on my chair for an hour. So that was wasted time. Then I went to the bagel shop—because rather than wash my dishes so I could eat breakfast in my room, I spent the hour sitting on my chair wishing John was with me. I got my coffee (well, espresso drink) and a muffin, and found a couch in the University Center, and sat down to knit or study or something… and fell asleep. Luckily I didn't have class until 9:30, so I slept until y 9:10 alarm went off.

I feel better now.

But I totally would have slept until my 12:30 class.

I forgot I had a quiz/test thing today (all about the muscles in the foot) and studying right now isn't going to do squat, so I'm dreading the quiz/test thing.

after class, I'm going to get coffee—some REAL COFFEE—and take my pills, and knit my hat so I can sell it on my shop and earn some money because I'm very poor. not broke, but poor.

also: apparently selling a knit domo on etsy breaks copyright laws. note to self: DON'T BREAK COPYRIGHT LAWS!

I had some odd dreams last night too. one of them was I dreamed I found a hat I'd knitted, and shrunk and turned into a baby hat. which was sad because it was one of my favorites.

I also dreamed John and I were married. :) (No details about that dream.)

no, I'm kidding. it wasn't bad. we were just sitting together. okay there may have been some kissing. okay there was a lot of kissing.

JOHN IS COMING ON FRIDAY!!!!! GAH!!!

~em

blahhhh

my eyes suck at being eyes. they hurt so bad right now. plus my knee hurts, and my head hurts because the coffee hasn't hit my system yet, and I feel crabby because I miss the boy. good grief do I miss him.

sometimes I feel so good, like I'm on top of the world and ahead of the game because I studied, I finished my homework, I sold something on my etsy shop (called the yarn cat, btw. I won't link it for anonymity sake). or maybe I learned something new, like I learned something about my novel, or how to crochet or tat lace (all three of which happened recently).

other times, like today, I feel like a slacker because I got up at 11 only because I knew I had to take my meds at the same time every day to avoid my period coming three weeks early, and I've spent the past three hours browsing the interwebs, drinking coffee, eating a donut, and just being lazy.

plus, now, because my eyes suck at being eyes, and I've spent a while staring at a screen, my eyes hurt worse than they did when I woke up.

I want my glasses!!! they are being "processed" (whatever that means). I just hope they work—like, I hope I got all the numbers right.

Sis is sitting with me. apparently Jeff is mad at her—again—so she's hanging out with me.

I am procrastinating. I am supposed to be working on a makeup morgue.

I have a ton of books to read too.

I need to get working.

but all I want to do is brows etsy and work on my crochet squares. I think I'm going to make a little baby quilt. :)

John and his mother are coming to visit me next friday I AM SO FREAKING EXCITED!!!!!!!1

~em

so apparently I'm blind

I've been having a lot of problems with my eyes lately. I went to the eye doctor and got an eye exam and found that I have 20/40 vision in one eye, and 20/50 in the other. So legally, I shouldn't be driving.

I'm a really good driver though.

So now I'm getting progressive bifocals. Or at least, I will, after I find someone to measure my pupillary distance. I can't do it myself. I guess I could do it in front of a webcam, and then look at the video, but I don't know how accurate that would be.

Anyway, other than that, I've gotten my etsy shop started, and I've been knitting Pokémon, Legend of Zelda hats, and other cool stuff.

Right now I'm taking a break from bleak house. I'm listening to Librivox's audiobook because my audiobook hasn't come in yet.

*shoots self in head*

I taught ballet for my teacher today! I substituted for her because she had to be somewhere. it was really fun. and the students had fun too.

Also: Bleak House… in your pants.

lists help me think.

So. here is a list of stuff that has happened, is happening, or will happen:

1. I am joining my local church. I've been wanting to join for a while, and that church is really the reason I chose the school I'm at now, so I went to a membership class and I'll probably join in the next few weeks.
2. John and his mother are coming to visit me in the first week of March (I'm so excited!!)
3. It's been a year since I've started working on my novel, and it's still just a crappy first draft…. I'd better get going on that.
4. my phone is screwed up, and doesn't send or receive pictures for some reason. this is bad, because my phone is my camera, and I take pictures from my phone and text them to my email address, and that's how I get pictures. so I have to fix this… I got a blue-tooth adapter for my computer so I can send them to my computer that way… we'll see if that works.
5. I am behind on my reading. WAY behind. I have to read emma, heart of darkness, and about eight review books. oy.
6. I'm going to knit a sweater. it might take me a year, but I'm so going to knit a sweater.
7. I'm also going to knit my wedding dress. this means I have to learn to knit lace, and I have to get over my fear of size 3 needles.

that's the basic idea. it's still a work in progress of course, and I'm sure I'll change it a lot as I go, but that's the general idea.

I'm thinking a winter wedding would be nice. but summer or spring or fall would be fine too.

:)

this morning.

I'm being both good and bad this morning.

these are the good things I did:

• I got up before noon (okay, 11:30)
• I called John and we talked for a while before we got up, which was nice
• I packed all my bags full of school books, and headed to starbucks
• I didn't forget to take my medicine
• Even though I'm almost done knitting my blue ringed octopus, I didn't bring it with me to starbucks, so I could focus on my homework first! (this is a big thing for me)

these are the bad things I did this morning:

• On the phone with John, I sort of flirted with him. I wasn't horribly bad, but I could have been less of a tease I guess.
• For breakfast, I am eating a pumpkin spice latte (the venti size…) and a pumpkin cranberry cream-cheese stack from McAlisters.
• I forgot my glasses. Which means I'll have to go back to my dorm and get them, because I've been typing for two minutes and my head already hurts.

So yeah. The good outnumbers the bad, but we don't follow utilitarianism here.

at least I think that's the word.

I'm eventually going to make a dictionary. It will contain words I often forget the meaning of and have to relearn the meaning every semester, new important things I've discovered, and words I made up that I don't want to forget.

And I'll make it on InDesign. Since I paid three hundred dollars for the program, there is no reason I shouldn't' use that thing for EVERYTHING.

Sometimes… I feel like this…

o.O

These. Are. Amazing.

I am in love.

where's waldo?

more like "where's emily?"

yes, the truth is out. I call myself emily on this blog. it's not my real name. long story there ;)

Back at school. It feels good to be back. Sis is moved in. I think she's still sleeping.

We left Thursday night at 10:30pm and drove through the night. We got to school at 5:30. Record time! It was actually pretty fun. Once we got past midnight, it wasn't hard to stay awake. I like driving at night. It's a lot more relaxing. There's no traffic. There's no huge trucks (well, okay, there are some, but there's plenty of room on the road to pass them). And  most of the time, the only headlights on the road are mine! So I don't get blinded!! yay!

Anyway, our ID cards worked at 5:30, so we went into the dorms. Sis and Jeff (more on him later) crashed in commons rooms. I slept in my own bed for the first time in almost a month. I fell asleep about 6am.

and woke up at 9:30am.

because I had forgotten to bring in my medicine and I didn't want to go into withdrawal.

so I got on some clothes and shoes and went out to the car and got my meds and by the time I'd taken them, I was awake (it was cold outside) so I just started unpacking and cleaning and stuff.

we were busy until 6:30pm, when I finally died. I was organizing my yarn (it's still a mess, but it's better) but I just crashed. so I called John for a few minutes, and went to bed at 7.

now im up and I need to go to walmart and get food so I can eat something besides chocolate and doughnuts for breakfast.

okay so: Jeff. Jeff is Sis's friend. She met him last Christmas. I was at college last year, and she was lonely. She met two guys: Jeff, and Blake. the relationship between them was a young adult novel, and one day I'm going to write about something like it and make a lot of money.

anyway. Jeff is a good friend of hers, and he just transferred up to school with us. so you'll be hearing more about him.

lastly: last night I had a dream that everyone thought I pulled a fire alarm in a building and they were going to arrest me. but it turned out I was really a super-hero detective, and I helped them solve the case. I used Jesus-power. (no seriously: my ID said "Christ appointed detective with the Power of God.") anyway then these demons came to our house and I had to destroy them so they wouldn't kill my family, and it was really hard, but I did it using wit and Jesus-power and a really cool gun that shot blue bullets and made things explode.

kinda wish I hadn't woken up.

Super-emily to the rescue!!!

Random things that happened over Christmas break:

• I learned to knit socks. They're just like mittens, but you add a heel instead of a toe. I don't know why I didn't figure this out before.
• I dropped three pants sizes. totally by accident! but still. I was a 5. now I'm a 2. but they don't make 2's with the length I need, so I'm still wearing my 5's with belts and I look like a potato sack. anyway.
• I acquired many scarves. apparently John's mother had told her extended family with whom we stayed over Christmas that I liked scarves. so I got several of them. I can't complain, because I love them all. now I'll be warm and cute!
• I made $100 working for my dad for a few days.
• I realized I could live at home and spend very little money if I was smart. usually I would eat out and buy coffee and other stuff, but this time I didn't spend hardly any money (I was saving for gas money for my trip to see John) and I learned a valuable lesson: you don't have to spend money to be happy. of course I already knew this, I just wasn't practicing.
• I rekindled my love of knitting. I knit almost every day for several hours. I forgot how much I absolutely adore knitting!!! it's so much fun!!!

a lot more happened, but these were my big highlights.

A little bit of ketchup

I've had an excellent week. I drove up to John's house the day after Christmas (Monday) and we headed out to Virginia to visit his extended family. His family is pretty awesome. I like them. They adore me, for some reason I can't quite figure out. They even got me Christmas presents before they met me! I have a lot of thank you notes to write this year... sadly, all my stationary is at school, so they'll take a while.

I think when I send out thank you notes, I'll also write Christmas cards, and send out a newsletter about what's been going on in my life. That way I don't have to write the same thing a gazillion times.

Anyway. We're back at John's house, and he and I are going to drive back to my place so he can stay with us for a while. He's been doing some work for my dad.

It's just been an awesome time. I finally feel like I've had a Christmas break: I've been chilling out, watching movies with John, talking to his family and gaining more and more of his mother's trust, and getting to know the guy I'm going to marry one day.

So now I'm going to get off of his laptop, and go brush my teeth. I think we're going to get pizza today, and then get COLDSTONE!!! (he found out I like coldstone because we were reading my book, the one about the two kids who meet over facebook and fall in love? if you want more info on that, email me ;))

anyway.

I'll be home by this afternoon. :)

I'm going to make a video

called "10 things you didn't know about me."

Here's the list. the video will be online eventually, but I won't link it. if you know my firstnamelastname you can search it on youtube.

1. I have multiple identities online. This is only one of them. mwaahhahahhaa! (but don't worry, they're all used for good and not evil)

2. I have a strange fascination with flicking my pocket knife open and closed.

3. I was forced to get my ears pierced when I was fourteen! My ballet teacher told me I had to wear earrings with my costume, and unless it was against my parent's rules, I needed to get them pierced so I could wear earrings for the show. today, I hardly ever wear earrings because I'm allergic to all of them, even silver plated. I can't wear anything else except silver plated because my holes will bleed and turn black, and I can't wear nice quality ones for more than a few hours.

4. I'm allergic to makeup. it makes my eyes water and burn and itch. performance days were always a nightmare.

5. I listen to ballet music on my laptop, in the car, on my phone, while I'm studying, etc. because I'm so used to focusing and relaxing and thinking clearly when I hear it, that it has that effect on me now.

6. I'm extremely flexible. My ballet teacher called me Gumbi Girl because I just sort of stretch like a rubber band.

7. I can't seem to find jeans that fit me. If they fit my hips, they're too short. If they're long enough, they're too loose. So most of the time, I either wear a kid's belt that I've punched extra holes in, or I wear overalls. because overalls don't fall down.

8. I'm allergic to chocolate. it makes my throat burn and my eyes water and I cough and gag.

9. I bite my fingers like crazy but I'm trying to stop. my thumbs are almost healed now! yay!

10. I'm Dyslexic. I'm a book reviewer and a writer, but I'm dyslexic. this is why I play the piano and the recorder by ear: I can't read music.

Some college students are stupid.

Some college student robbed the State credit union out here. Moron! He only got $300 and then, of all dumb choices, he went back to his apartment that was walking distance from the credit union.

Everyone thought he was on campus, so they sent out shelter-in-place and we were locked down for two hours. He never ended up coming on campus though.

during the course of the lockdown, I filmed my podcast (which you can find by searching my firstnamelastname on youtube) talked to John on the phone, and took a call from my possible future employer for my summer internship (more on that when my plans get finalized!).

Speaking of the internship, the place I'm thinking about going has very limited wi-fi, and no cell service. That means no boyfriend phone calls and no skyping. which means there will be lots of blog posts and probably some video blogging on my youtube channel.

Anyway. More updates soon.

Three more finals for me! An online English test, an essay I need to turn in, and a French test. Then I'll be out of here. YAY!

<3