see, I want a boyfriend like this.

“I have five sisters.” I told her.

“Oh.” She said seriously. She paused and then added, “I’m sorry.”

I laughed. “There have been some tough days.”

“That’s a lot of estrogen.”

“You have no idea. There are certain weeks of the month I camp out with my friends to keep from being eaten. I think they turn into vampires.”

“What’s wrong with vampires?” she asked.

“Nothing. But these ones never smile.” I nudged her playfully with my shoulder and watched as she broke into a smile for a second before pursing her lips and looking at her hands.

“Guess I’m just an out of practice vampire.”

“You’re not a vampire. You don’t try to kill me, you don’t boss me around, you don’t make me go to the drug store at three in the morning to get ibuprofen, you don’t cry when I eat the last doughnut.”

She giggled a little. “You go to the drug store at three in the morning to get pain killers for your sisters?”

I nodded seriously.

“Damn. I bet you’re a really good boyfriend.”

“I try my best.” I grinned.

Do not stand there at my grave and weep

This is a poem I found in my stress management textbook (of all places) and it reminded me of my character, Ivan. he dies. It's a sad sweet violent death because the female protagonist loves him.

 

Do not stand there at my grave and weep
I am not there. I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glint on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentile autumn rain.
When you wake in the morning hush
I am the swift, uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circling flight.
I am the soft starlight at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry
I am not there. I did not die.

~Joyce Fessen

(For Ivan)

characters

ended up writing a memoir about my characters Michael, Lezlianne, and Brett and a little of Lindsay. that was the most important story anyway. And Michael is the best character—he doesn't think so but that's what makes him so charming—and I adore him and he adores me.

going home for spring break. really excited. mom and dad are sending me gas money. othewise I'd be stuck here reading and doing nothing.